There’s a woman that I’ve been in love with for the past 4 years, since I was 18. I’ve borne witness to her transformation from an innocent girl to a strong woman. I’ve tried my best to take care of her from the day I met her to the day I asked her out.

I bore witness to the scumbag that was her ex-boyfriend, who cheated on her with so many others. I stood by in silence as I watch him destroy her heart, her giving heart, bit by bit by agonizing bit. I stood by in silence as she suffered the ignominy of such a degree of humiliation. I stood by in silence as she crumbled, was remade anew in her own baptism of fire.

I realise, that this is naught but a trial, and that her imposed distance from me is an obstacle that I have to slowly chisel my way through. I realise that this will be my personal karma, to redeem myself, and I welcome it. I have tasted some measure of what..sheer joy she will bring me, and I kneel in askance for more.

But it will not come easy.

People oft say that what is worth having, does not come easy, but I do not agree.

She is not a “thing” to be had; she is a wondrous being, to be cherished, to be nurtured, to be taken care of with all my heart.

If you see this, know that I will be waiting, should the day come when you deem me fit and suitable to be trusted with the key to the vaults of your heart. Till then, I will try to remake myself into a person that will try to live up to the heaviest burden of all.

Your heart … that’s love.